Monday, February 13, 2012

Our Beautiful Baby Boy


I wasn’t sure if I was going to share this, on this blog, especially since I haven’t once mentioned I was pregnant.  But whenever I have been reading a blog and then all of a sudden they just disappear I always wonder what happened.  If life threw them a little curve ball, or maybe they just got too busy.  Well life did throw us a little curve ball on February 3rd.  

I was looking forward to last Friday for weeks.   It was my birthday after all and my husband had the day off, but mostly I was looking forward to seeing our baby for the first time.  I had scheduled my 20 week ultrasound on my birthday and was excited to put the worry I had, had all pregnancy about the baby not being okay behind me. I was worried about the health of the baby due to having surgery around week 9-10.  Unfortunately that day wasn’t what I dreamed it would be.  There wasn’t any happy news.  We have had enough kids and enough ultrasounds to realize that things were not like they normally are.  The ultrasound lady was really quiet, she kept leaving the room and would be gone for a long time.  She kept measuring the chest, and head over and over, putting arrows pointing at different spots especially on the head.  We had asked not to find out the sex of the baby but with her concern over getting all the pictures she needed for the doctor she showed us his boy parts at least 3 times.  Now I’m not a radiologist or anything but I can recognize a penis when I see one, and I thought that, that was really weird that we asked her to keep it secret and she didn’t seem to be paying attention to what she was showing us.  I really got worried when I saw his abdomen, even to my untrained eye I could tell things didn’t look right.  I of course didn’t know what it was, and I was still in a state of denial, or maybe hoping I was just wrong and being paranoid.  After the scan was over we met the doctor in an office, and was told that things didn’t look good for our baby.  That he had pleural effusions.  (He never told us the name of our baby’s condition) That he had fluid in his abdomen and in his skin, and that we needed to go to Seattle to get some more information and tests done. He then told us some of the things that could cause his problems but not much else.  Of course we were distraught and we didn’t even know what that would mean for our baby or really what we were even dealing with.  I mostly just cried, and cried and cried and that is pretty much how I spent the weekend.  Monday morning the U of W called and had gotten us appointments for Wednesday.  We had appointments with a genetic counselor, ultrasound and a consult with a perinatologist.  On Tuesday I finally got up the courage to Google our baby’s symptoms, I just needed to know what we were dealing with.  I found what I was looking for, what our baby has is called Non-Immune Hydrops Fetalis. All that means is that the baby has fluid in his body in more than one place.  (I wouldn’t recommend googling it, it’s pretty depressing )   It was good and bad thing to find out.  I learned that the prognosis for a baby that has hydrops is poor.  That more often than not it leads to stillbirth.  That of course was horrid, and quite frankly still is, it’s hard to know that, that is the likely outcome.  Especially as we look at him on ultrasound.  He looks so normal, and is so active, his heart beat is strong and healthy.  I also found out that there are a lot of things that cause this problem and what is causing it has a big impact on whether or not they can treat the baby.  I won’t go into all of that because there is a lot and really it will only matter to us what our baby has.  The two main ones that they are currently looking at are Chromosomal problems and Viruses.  We are hoping for a virus, and know it sounds strange but they can do more for our son if a virus is causing the problem.  So on Wednesday, we went to all our appointments and really didn’t find anything out that we didn’t already know.  We did get confirmation that our baby is suffering from Non-Immune Hydrops Fetalis, and he has a lot of fluid in his abdomen, lungs and skin.  But finding out what is causing it will take time, and there is still a chance that they will never figure it out.  They didn’t have an amino scheduled for us that day, but luckily we talked them into doing one before we left that night.  Without the amnio it’s harder to figure out what’s going on.  We were lucky to get it done too, because by then it was around 6:00 pm and there weren’t a lot of people still at work.  Part of the fluid they took will go for what they call a fish test, it’s a quick test that screens for the more common chromosomal problems, down syndrome, trisomy 18, trisomy 13,  & Turners syndrome (which we already know our baby doesn’t have because he is a boy) So that’s were we stand today.  Knowing our baby is fighting for his life, and there isn’t much we can do but pray and put his and our lives in the hands of our Heavenly Father.  It’s going to be a long road, but we’re on it and hopefully are headed toward some kind of answers as soon as possible.   People tell you to take it one day at a time, but right now it’s so raw, that I try and live moment to moment.  Some moments are better than others, and doing things like talking about it, or blogging about it will usually make for lots and lots of crying later.  We have great friends here that have done so much for us, watching kids, bringing dinner and so many other things I can’t even begin to list them all.  Plus of course our wonderful friends & families who aren’t here near us but offer very kind and comforting words.  I just keep telling myself to remember the scripture from

Psalm 46 “Be still and know that I am God”.  Also the song “Be Still My Soul”  is a great comfort to me, though I usually end up in a blubbering heap. 

1. Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.


Update * we got our quick test back and they were all normal!  That of course doesn’t rule out a lot of other chromosomal problems, but a least it’s something positive.

As for the blog as you can imagine, I don’t exactly feel up to it right now.  I have been sewing a lot, I call it sewing therapy.  It actually helps me get through some hard parts of the day.  Because I’m a good enough sewer that the kids can actually wear the stuff I produce, but I’m not that good that I don’t actually have to think about it a little and having something else to think about really helps.  

- Jaime

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Chocolate Peanut Butter Cookies


These are some of my favorite cookies.  The chocolate cookie combined with the peanut butter chips, is a great combo. I have also just used chocolate chips and they are great like that too, or chocolate and white chips mixed. So yummy, I hope you like them too.

Chocolate Peanut Butter cookies


  • 1 cup butter, softened
  • 3/4 cup white sugar
  • 3/4 cup brown sugar
  • 2 eggs
  • 2 teaspoons vanilla extract
  • 2 - 2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour*
  • 2/3 cup cocoa powder
  • 1 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 1/2 a bag of semi-sweet or milk chocolate chips
  • 1 bag of peanut butter chips


Cream together the butter, white & brown sugar, eggs and vanilla.  Then add the flour, cocoa powder, baking soda, and salt mix well.  Then mix in your chips.  Drop onto a greased cookie sheet and bake at 350 degrees for 9-11 min.


p.s you’ll want to have large class of ice cold milk standing by.


*a little side note on flour.  Because of where I live I ALWAYS have to add more flour to any cookies recipe I use.  If you don’t have that problem go with 2 cups of flour. 

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

“Stop making bread, you’re making me fat!”


Yesterday, I wanted to try another new bread recipe to go with our Italian dinner, I was planning.  So I popped on over to Pinterest to see what I could find.  And I came across this lovely bread here.  But as you can see that recipe is not in English, and I really, really didn’t want to go to all the trouble to translate it.  But it does have lovely pictures, and I realized that what I liked about the bread was more about the technique and how it looked than it was about the taste.  Any dough that is stiff enough to work with will work just fine.  I actually used the French Bread dough recipe that I tried the other day, because I wanted mine to be savory and not sweet.  If I was going to make it into a sweet/cinnamon bread I would use my sweet roll recipe, (cut the recipe in half and use a bit more flour until the dough, cleans the sides of the bowl).

 After your dough has risen and is ready to shape, roll it out flat, like cinnamon rolls.  Then add whatever filling you want.  I used butter, Italian seasoning, garlic powder and grated parmesan cheese. 035

Then roll it up just like a cinnamon roll.


Then you cut it completely in half lengthwise.


Then you take the two halves and twist them together


Then join the two ends to make a circle. Then I brushed it with an egg wash.  Let it rise again for about 15-20 min.


Then I baked it according to the French Bread directions.  If you’re using your own recipe then it took about 30 min half of the time at 400 degrees and the other half of the time at 350. But if I was making my sweet bread recipe I would probably start with 30 min @ 350 and then go from there.




It was super fun, to make and super tasty too.


Oh, and the title of the post is a direct quote from my husband.  He also said that this was the best bread he has eaten… this week. 

Button, button, Who in the heck sews with buttons??

So I know you don’t know this, because I haven’t posted any of them, but I have been in a sewing mood lately and yesterday I finished my 4th dress. Currently I’m working on non-matching/matching dresses for all my girls to wear to my 2nd daughters baptism coming up in March!  The first one is finished a turned out great.  BUT that is not what I wanted to share with you today (I’ll share those when all 3 of them are finished).  SEW I decided to try and make a dress that required buttons for my 3 year old.  I found some really cute corduroy that I wanted to use and as I was looking through the patterns I found a pattern that’s style, I thought matched corduroy really well.  So I got it.  LATER when I actually got around to reading the directions I realized it had BUTTONS as fasteners, like real live buttons, not fake decoration type buttons.  Needless to say I was a little nervous, but I like a challenge so I decided to try the button instead of doing what my brain was screaming at me to do, (you know like cheat and use snaps or Velcro or something).  The top of the dress came together flawlessly, then it came time to actually sew on the buttons.  Well I’ll forgo the sad story of me spending 3 hours looking for, while tearing apart my entire house something I thought I needed, to then borrowing it from a friend, to finding out I had what I needed along. Sorry this is all getting really long.  In short I read the directions and made beautiful practice button holes!  I was ecstatic, then when I went to do it on the actual dress, well let just say that, they work great and it could have been worse.  All in all I’m glad I tried it and I would definitely try it again.  Lessons learned: Reading directions, really helps.  Trying something new is always an adventure!!  So here is the finished product, I can never get that great of pictures of dresses sorry. 


Oh there is suppose to be a band at the bottom of the dress in a contrasting color, I left that off for now because, the buttons I had didn’t match any of the colors of fabric, I had and it looked really funny, so I thought I would add a ruffle of the same fabric on the bottom instead, or look for some green material to match the current buttons or look for some buttons that match the fabric I do have.  But for now she loves it and wears it all the time!